Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Remembering together


         Our wonderful team of co-residents, faculty, and dedicated family members and I were able to experience the joy of providing medical care in the Taulabe region of Honduras 2 weeks ago. The memory of our trip will forever be colored by the pain of losing one of our dear friends and colleagues in the preceding days, Ethan Sellers, whose moving poems can be found below.
            I’ll never be able to write like Ethan, so for a more profound emotional expression of the doctor-patient relationship on prior Honduras trips, I’d encourage you to read his writings. While we were all experiencing the initial phases of grief during the trip, we were united in our shared experience-- something Ethan would have appreciated, I think. We found joy and humor in thinking of him being here a year prior and excitedly yelling “Cheque leque panqueque” and playing with all the children-- something he did with gusto with all the children in the residency program whenever he had the chance. I could also picture him every time I knelt down to check a patient’s feet, or each time I stopped writing notes and just sat and listened as a patient shared their story. Everyone we met was so generous with their time, patience, and in sharing their lives with us. The exam space was in some ways more intimate than at home-- we were invited into the local church to set up our clinic, and then had the chance to sit directly facing our patients without the barrier of a computer screen. It was truly family medicine in the best way, as mothers would come in with 2-3 children at a time, and we would address each family member individually before summing up the collective plan, with each child patiently waiting for their turn to be examined. We also saw older couples coming in together. Whenever I asked which patient the family would like to start with, it was always the youngest-- and in couples, each person inevitably pointed to their partner, demonstrating the selfless nature of the patients we were lucky enough to meet and serve.
            I could see why Ethan loved coming here-- I did too, and I think the experience, while painful, was healing to some degree in picturing him in his element amongst the welcoming people here.

Joanna Ingebritsen, R3, KP Napa Solano

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